Saturday, 17 August 2013

I ran

 At the stroke of midnight
I ran,
I ran from you, from my pain, from my past
I ran from you, from my love, from my life
I ran from me, from hurts, from strive

I ran
From known
To unknown,
To future black and bleak
Without you crazy and weak
But for you,
I ran,
From you

 

I ran like a crazy man,
I ran with my legs and my soul
My legs running in all directions, away from you
My soul entwined with you but running away from you
I ran

Your love engulfed me
Your eyes overwhelmed me
Your bare soul made me weak
Your deep eyes made me weep
Your touch your look gave me spasm  
My heart still bleeding, couldn’t take your passion
Hence I ran
I ran from your love and my obsession 

My heart couldn’t believe the love you offered
I kept hurting you and saw you suffer
You felt trapped, I felt locked
My mind was numb and my senses shocked
I asked this question again and again
Am I fair to you?
Am I your Man?
And my mind gave me this answer again and again
No, you don’t deserve her
Will you be able to preserve her?
Will you look after the pieces of her heart?
Will you be able to restart?
You hardly manage to let go of the past,
You hardly manage to breathe on your own
How will you be her Man?
Will you ever be able to be a part of her plan?
Would you be able to give her the due?
Will you ever stand up and say I do?
I knew, I would never
And I ran!

I ran so you could see a better tomorrow
I ran so you could be out of my sorrow
I ran to give you wings
I ran to give you wins
I ran to let you fly

I ran in the night,
To let you see the day,

I ran so I could die,
Without you
I ran,
So you could live without me

(C) Juztamom 2013


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40 comments:

  1. Beautifully expressed. Sometimes people do run to give others wings, true.

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  2. Yes sometimes the best gift you can give a loved one is to leave

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    1. That was true in my case. Being left made me stronger than ever and sent me off to find my own happiness. Today, I thank the runner.

      And, thank YOU for this lovely expression.
      xoA

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    2. Ritu yes I agree, though it needs strength.

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    3. Annis thank you so much. I agree sometimes the sad break off that we think would kill us turns out to be the best thing in our life.

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  3. Sometimes the medicine can harm too, likewise sometimes love too can hurt; so its best to be away and keep loving.

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  4. "I ran to give you wings..." - a moving poem of stress and finding a way to relieve the stress.

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  5. I really like that in the beginning we believe the runner is afraid of her, then ome to realize that he is really afraid of what he is doing to her.

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  6. ya. very true. sometimes it happens.. well expressed.

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  7. Wow!!

    you have expressed true love

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  8. There is a depth of awareness about pain in this poem. I like the idea that the narrator left to give the other wings. Wonderful!

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    1. Thank you so much dear for your wonderful words :)

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  9. Wise to realize our limitations in relation to others, even if separation is painful.

    "But for you,
    I ran,
    From you"

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    1. Yes I agree, sometimes medicines can be bitter but we can't avoid them if we want to be healthy. Thanks so much :)

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  10. A piece of writing that hits on that infuriating and desperate desire to love someone who doe not love you back the same way. I think many of us know this feeling well. this might work well as a spoken word the way it is layed out. Enjoyed it immensely!.

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    1. Thanks dear. I agree there are so many examples of desperate love around me, it suffocates me even thinking about it but I also agree it is not easy to break free, it takes a lot of strength and believe in yourself to do it successfully.

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  11. I once ran from a man because I was the worst thing in his life: a strong woman who would make everything OK. It was like being his mom, and when we had our own baby, that became evident.

    I ran because I lost respect. Your take, running to give that woman wings to fly, is much more noble indeed. This feels like an ekphrastic prompt, but either way it's luscious. Has the feel of the distance of the runner. Thx for stopping by my blog and commenting, so I could find you! Amy

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    1. Wow Amy Kudos! Respect! It is not an easy decision to take, especially with a child but I am glad you took it. I am glad you are leading with a strong example for your child.I agree with you completely!!

      Thanks so much for dear for your wonderful comment. Yes it is indeed a very noble act and needs a lot of strength to take such a step!

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  12. Sfurti .. honestly .. speaking I could relate so much .. at times.. we leave to let live .. as love is all but selfishness !!
    Awesome I say !

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    1. Mysay wow beautiful words...love is all but selfishness..yess it is even in its purest form!!

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  13. Sfurti, how well you write. I could visualize and relate to the escapist in us. We run away because we cannot face the truth. We run away because we want to face the truth. We give ourselves pain and want to justify the same. God only knows how justified we are!

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    1. Geetashree Wow..thank you for such thoughtful and thought provoking words :)

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  14. Don't know what to say but very touching...

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    1. Pankti you don't need words to communicate to me :)

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  15. Beautiful concept Sfurti! :) I hope that the man returns back one day with loads of love and affection for her and there will never again arise a situation that demands the man to run away a second time! :)

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    1. Ranjith thanks you. And I hope too but even if he doesn't return I hope he ran away for something good, the girl gets enough strength to pick up the pieces and re start :)

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